Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Pictures of my hobby

I have some pictures of wad I do on the weekends finally and thanks to Flickr.com, I can show them to the world

This is of one of my newer plane that I call a Striker

Then I succumbed to my lust and got this too

Finally this plane is not mine, but belongs to my friend and since I am considered the more senior pilot of the day and he want to see it fly, I flew it for him. Its a nice plane though

So you see.... I am a rather boring person over teh weekend as I do not go out and do normal stuff, most gals will get bored with me if I always head for the field (aside from when its raining) the 1st chance I get to fly. Lucky for me, she is rather yunderstanding and goes there to sleep when I fly.

Monday, March 28, 2005

The significance of 2012

I have been keepingmyself busy latelyin ready some conspiracy theories that the ppl of US of A conjured up felt that was real. One of these theories led to another and I was reading about a said experiment that was carried out during 1943. It denoted possibilities of time travel, inter dimention travel, radar displacement and visual cloaking.

I am sort of a science nut sometimes and things like this intrigues me. To an extend that it intrigues the hell out of me. The 1st stop was the 'Philadelphia Experiment' that the American government has still denined existed till this day. The read is rather long but it stated horrific events that happen during the said experiment. Also there was a brief mention of time travel in it and some science about how magnetic fields around earth works.

Then they link to this other page that talked about a 'Montauk Experiment' That seem to be a sort of extension to teh orignal experiment made. What was chilling is that in this read towards the end there is this line that made me think a bit.

'Other experiments included time travel. No one has picked up a tangible future beyond 2012 AD. There is a very abrupt wall there with nothing on the other side. A working time vortex was created to the future.'

So I started to wonder about 2012, I googled it up and was shocked that there is actually something about that date. According to the Mayan calendar, well their long count will end in Dec 21 2012AD. A lot of ppl have predicted that that may be the end of days. Its very coincidentally when you put those 2 information together. Maybe life as we know will end at 2012?

Then I began to wonder, What will I do if that really is the end. I mean on that final year or final month or year, wad wil anyone of you do? would you go out and do something you will not normally do? Or spend it with a loved one entwined together? Me I really dun know wad to do, I guess I can only react to this particular situation though I always felt that I am the sort to make plans for long term and not really an impluse kind of person. But these reads have shaken me a bit and left me wondering about a lot of questions.

It you are interested to find out more, just google 'what will happen after 2012AD' a lot of people have their own version that might happen.

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Wads really going on??!!!

If you had read thru all my archives and have wondered why I do not post much about my own life, whether its the sad part or the happy parts, coz I am rather an emotional person in real. thus in here my alter ego will be someone nonchalant or even emotionaless. I dun really like to post my problems online for assholes people to disect. But sometimes it is hard for me to ignore the things that are happening ard me and treat it like everything is fine.

Just a sneak into the real me. Well at this point of time, while my love life might be soaring (yes people are cursing me this very moment to have such a good love life due to reasons only they know) my family is sort of falling apart. Well you see my father just retired recently and my brother has been out of a job since 3 yrs ago (or more) my mom cannot work due to heath and education reasons and that leaves with me. I bring home enuff for myself, well if I had not bought the car last year there is a chance I can support this family on my pay.

I cannot sell the car as I have to repay the full loan 1st to sell it, at least when I sell it I have to pay the balance in cash or at least pay installments till I 'break even'. Thus I am caught between a rock and a hard place. As for my father retiring, you will think that its a good thing and he shld be living off his CPF rite? No such luck.... Well 5 yrs or so ago, my uncle approached my father for money to start a business when his(my father) CPF matured. He lent him a big sum, ad my uncle started his business.

The business failed (my family luck is that good) and to help him further my father lent him more, till there was no more to lend. Worst thing is that he(my uncle) borrowed from the banks and owe a bit, my silly father being the guarantor had to pay off that money my uncle owed as he(my uncle) had gone into hiding as he (my uncle) had owed money to both banks and loan sharks.

So now, being retired, my father has no money to use from his CPF, has a lousy temper, thinks that he is rite all the time. Thus my mom is fed up with him and wants to move out when she has the money to do so. The only hope we might have now is that we might have to sell our house which is worth ard 400K. Buy a cheaper house, split the money equally among my mom and dad, watch my mom move out and keep my dad from slurping all this new found income.

Feels like 'Happy days' alll over again(*sighs*). Sometimes when I hear people say sometimes its good to die early, so that you wun have to suffer when you are old, I used to cringe. Now I find truth in that saying with each days passing.

P.S ever since I have been doing research about certain 'truths' of the start of WWII and the events of 911, my PC was infested with a few hundred spywares and virus attacks. Maybe there is some truth in wad I read and someone is releasing virus to those whom read these sites? Who knows.....well...who care sanyway.

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Tongues? (Do you want to be famous part 2)

Was cruising the blog highway and there seem to be a stir in the blogging community, something about tongues, something about twisting. Well mr brown had started a project for all bloggers that they can send in their photos of themselves to flicker (get an account 1st) and these photos should be of themselves sticking their tongues out ala xiaxue fashion in one of her earlier post.

Me I wun be posting any pictures of myself, much less will I pose with me and my tongue in a twist of fate. The only possibility Of a photo of myself be posted is one of my hand, in a clenched fist pose, with the middle finger extended, doing my best impression of a flying fuck. In fact, i did that this morning to some asshole on the road when I signalled and he sped up not allowing me to fliter.

Come to think of it I think I might even more famous than I gave myself credit, for maybe many of you out there have been famously 'flipped' off by me already and you could have seen my best impression of a flying fuck flash b4 your very eyes. Wadever the case, if you have seen it, it probably meant you deserved it.

aside from the flying fuck humor, I guess I shall sit here in my humble corner while i watch a certain someone's head expand from all the fame she is getting. Like balloons, heads too will explode if too much fame is pumped into it. Btw if you cannot tell, I love my lil quiet space I have in this corner and am in no way wanting hordes of assholes people coming in here and ruin my day.

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Do you want to be famous

It seems thatthe latest trend in bloggingis to get noticed, I see on a certain pink blog that ppl are shamelessly leaving their blog links in her comments page. I for one seldom leave a comment unless its worth leaving i.e. solving a IQ questionthat requires brains. But I do not put my blog address anywhere on the comment.

I read Calebs interview of Adri and found out that this babe is one of the pioneers of blogging. In the inteview there was advice on how to get more viewer ship and I found one part very interesting " link link link (5) it’s really quite easy to get noticed, as some people will say - get browned, xiaxued, popped by gandhi, whatever. :) " , as you can also see I do not have any blog links on my blog. Funny eh?

So wad does that tell you? Its either I am an idiot for not following that piece of tested and true advice or I do not want to be famous at all. I think for my case is I am too smart to be that said idiot so I guess its the later. Why do I not want to be famous you say? Well from wad I observe thru a certain someones blog, it seems that once fame gets into your head, it gets too big to fit thru the door, all logic is also thrown out of the door together with teh head. Like the saying "absolute power corrupts absolutely " , same goes with fame.

I mean when a 20 something year old and a 17 year old have a flame fest over the internet from blog to forums, you got to wonder why was the internet created in the 1st place, and they do it over an incident involving cab snatching and name calling no less. No matter who is in the wrong it still looks bad on both of them. It potrays how small minded Sillyporeans are.

Ugliness aside, there are better blogs to read (I used to think there were only a few good ones) like mr browns blog whom ever so graciously points you into teh direction of even more funnier blogs. For myself, I think hiding in this little nook of cyberspace is just all the attention I need. The counter I have in the blog lets me know that there are still very little ppl whom frequent my blog but recently teh number of hits have been increasing per day. I just hope that it will not come to a time where so many ppl come that I have to change my blog address and replicate my post there.

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Ooohhhhhhhh Plane......

I keep hearing this add on LUSH 99.5 everday when I come to work. Something about needingto go shopping during lunch time on a day where morning work was getting you down and all. I wentto do a bit of shopping today at lunch time, and went to my favourite hobby shopping centre at china town.

They had these kits that they had been trying sell from ALFA and though had seen the boxes and was turned off by teh prices, I wanted to see wad they look like inside the box. Big mistake I tell you. I opened up teh box and it was a beauty, I am drooling all over it. If not for my current situation I would have bought it in a heart beat. A man can dream can he oh well .

Btw this is the plane

Monday, March 14, 2005

Ants can take a few Gs

I had quite a few stow away passengers in my new plane yesterday, being the lazyass busy person I am at the field I decided to try to fly the ants off teh plane. As they (the ants) had infested the inisdes of the plane, it was difficult to remove them. A light bulb went off in my head and I decided to 'fly' them. Thus I preped the plane up for a pre evening flight, or known as the last light flight as the sun was setting fast.

I threw the plane into the air and she screamed away and I felt that everything seems to be fine up to this stage and shld not encounter any mishaps or wad so. I threw the plane into wild turns loops and rolls and threw her a few times repeating the loops and rolls all for a lasting 8 mins of flying time. The type of manuveurs I used could easily subject a person to almost 10Gs (where 1 G = to 1 times the gravity of the earth) of force. Thus smuggly thinking that any and all ants shld have done their rendition of drop zone by now.

Into the eigth minute, I found that guessing the oreintation fo the plane is begining to make me worry abit and as I did not want to tempt fate, I decided to land the plane. Landing was uneventful, to a point that it was almost perfect. But when I opened teh pane up and remove teh battery, the DAMN ants are still in there, about the same number that went up. How could this be? do ants defy the laws of physics? Sadly I had to borrow a cleaning bruch and slowly sweep them away.

Friday, March 11, 2005

Wad the HEOW... You crazy drivin BIATCH

I was on my way to work as usual, driving down the stretch on clementi road before the junction of Sunset way. This crazy bitch wanted to filter into teh right lane from the middle lane in order to rush to work. One problem, I was in that rite lane 1/4 into her car length. She just did not chk her blind spot, I horned her as it was my rite to do so coz I was 1) accelerating at that point 2) she was too damn near. Of course this horn woke her bloody idea and made her swerve back into her lane.

Thought that was teh end of it. I drove as per normal after that and approached my working place. On the junction at university hall, I stopped at the traffic light now in the middle lane. To my surprise, that damn bitch chased me all the way there and stopped next to me at the left lane. I noticed she was also a staff of NUS. I thought nothing of it and proceeded to move off on green light.

My car took lead and as I saw her full car in my left mirror (indicates itt is at least one car length away) I signalled my intentions and proceed to filter into the lane. Guess wad??? The damn bitch horned me!!! Wad teh HEOW..... I am one car length in front of you, wad the fuck is your problem! She just did not like the fact that she drove like a pussy and I was going to be in front of her again. I think she just wanted to horn me back for horning her earlier.

Some ppl have the nerve to not admit a mistake, I mean when I horned her the 1st time, it was becoz she did not chk her frugging blind spot and I was in that blind spot. Not becos I did not want to let her go nor did I want to force hr back into that lane, but becoz I was in that lane and the laws of physics denote that no 2 cars can occupy the same space at the same time. Wad is so hard to understand? Why she had to come chase me and horn me back?

In essence she thinks that wad she did was rite and thus the chasing me down to horn me back attitude. Dun you just hate it when someone commits a mistake and thinks that he/she did was rite? I mean, comeon you are old enuff to be matured about admitting to your own mistakes. I hate these so called self righteous bastards/bitches, even if they killed someone they would pine teh blame on something else, be the sun, the moon, the sky, the sea or the earth.

Thursday, March 10, 2005

Defense mechanism

I wrote this piece a long time ago on a cetain forums that I no longer go to anymore, recently I have thought about teh long piece I wrote and thus thought that I should put it up in my blog where I can remeber it. The italics are usually the thoughts i had during that time, I was pretty much screwed up then, have straighten my thoughts out a lot nowadays.

Defence mechanisms Prologue

In this series I have decided to tell a bit of the defenses that I have put up to safe guard myself from outside emotional hurt, be it from ppl whom I love or friends that I care for(that is why I always tell ppl that I dun have friends, even those whom I regard as my closest) It will let you have a glimpse of teh inner workings of this whacked out insane mind I got stuck in my cranium or in short, this sorry excuse of a brain I got.

Also I hope that ppl can look thru this and fiond out if they have teh same traits of this weird excuse of a human being and may learn from it. I may enclose some advises that ppl might want to heed in order not to commit the sevre mistakes I have done in my course of time. If even only one person benifit from my not so insightful look at emotions, I would be happy that it did helped someone.

Building walls

Most of the older birds in here know I got 40+ ex and that I am a sort of play boy in my past, off the 40+ ex gfs I had, with each time a set back occurs, be it quarrels, emotional blackmails or even disagreements to the slightess things, I hav eeither set a brick on the wall I build up, a whole section of the wall, or a new whole wall completely, depends on the depth of hurt it meant to me. Also form the 40+ r/s I got, I had maybe 4 times the number of said rejections? The same principle appiles for friendshipd or ppl I hold the dearest to me, by friends affect much 2 times more than a r/s does on the same basis and thus my walls against friends are much more and much higher.

Friends hold dear to me and i have had ppl that I have considered my best of friends stabbing me on my back countles of times, thus my reluctance to accpet or label ppl whom I hold dearly to me as my friends, let alone close friends

Defenses Used from the Walls we built

With each wall that is built, sometimes they are converted to defenses that we almost often use against everyone we meet, be it the 1st time or a long time friend. Some defense used commonly is shyness, or being too proud, being totally ignorant of the surroundings, emotional blackmails and even creating senerios or constraints that you try to adhere to. There are many other defenses that are not too commmon that only some whom is considered a mental case in some parts of the world deploy to their discretion. These include, paranoia, creating of multiple personalities to deal with different situations, self destructiveness and total shut down of social status(which is a worst case scenerio)

I guess you guys are wondering which I employ, sadly I find myself to use the more serious of defenses , bringing to light that I may not be as sane as teh average person. Sometiems I have hoped that I was never this way, as i think that I would be much happier if I did not cared so much

Shyness as a defense

This is a common defense ppl employ, this is becoz everyone wants to give a good impression the the ppl ard them. this is especially true when you meet someone for teh 1st time. Thus you try to go into your inner self, as far as you can, and hope for the best. The bravery of the individual plays an important role to this effect too. The less brave a person is , the less he/she will be willing to take risk, thus being shy.

I almost always employ this defense when I meet up with a new person or someone that I have never met for a long time. My case, its not becoz I am not brave but becoz I have built up walls so complex that sometimes I become lost in them.

Being proud or obnoxious

Yes this can also be a sort of defense. Some ppl when they meet they become very loud and irritating and they do it so that they can hide how scared they are inside and in order not to show taht they are in fact either a noboday or they are really scared to show how alone they actually are. They purposely become this form to irritate others to ensure that a proper friendship almost never forms thus saving themselves from the hurt a friend might give to you when you least expect it.

I do employ this a lot, especially at gatherings when I met ppl more than one time, I got to apologize to those whom I met here and have employed it on them. I guess i was too afraid to let anyone get close to the real me(if there is such a thing)

Emotional blackmails

This is a type of black mail that almost all of us use, we tend to ask our friends or our spouse question like ' if your my friend you will....' or 'if you love me you will...' All these is a form of emotional black mail leaving little room for your friend or partner to manuvre. This is considered an ofensive defense, meaning that you take precautions to protect yourself even before the emotional stress presents itself. I think that everyone shld not do it to their friends or spouse, why you might ask? Well simple, will rather a person do things for you becoz they want to or they do it becoz they are obligated to do so. A more serious form of emotional blackmail is to cause harm to oneself in the presence of the target that you want to blackmail emotionally. This not only destroys your own body, it also makes the other party feel trapped and lost for actions and in turn giving in to your needs

Yes, this is one of my favs....I know I am an evil person, but I used to black mail ppl with the more servere case of this form of defense and often get away with it. I used to bash my own hand on the wall till its a bleeding plup, geti into trouble with ppl outside just to get myself hurt so badly and later call the target, all just to emotionally manupilate that person.

Creating consraints or Rules for yourself and others

This one is new to me and I only recently seen it being employed, I can understand why some ppl do it. Take example that you have been doing something for the past 5 yrs and always get hurt from it, be it the way you fall in love to how you make friends. Then the ppl whom you think are the closest to you tell you that it is not rite to do things the way you do it now. You will want to change and set a strict rule to follow to correct your behaviour. There is nutting wrong in doing that, the only thing wrong will be to tell teh person or ppl affected by this rule that this must be accomplish and they too need to adhere to it. The problem here is, if you want a rule to constraint yourself its fine, but dun tellteh ppl involved, coz you will be adding the burden to them and thus they will always be aware of it. Its worst if its something that you yourself can't control form not doing, thus you might not knowingly put the blame on these poor souls the mistakes of your own. Either making them guilt concious or totally building walls for it.

I myself have had some many character changes that I have lost my own identity and in doing so all the old characters seem to surface recently. Thus I am always baffled at the things I say or do to ppl. Even ppl whom have known me for yrs dun really kno wme, as I often show the character they have seen all these times and think that that is me. Thus if one day i group most of teh ppl in one room, I think they will be in for a surprise or I might go bonkers from changing form one to the other.

Self destructiveness

When I say this, i dun mean sucides or physical abuse to oneself, although they seem to be relevant. Wad I mean is sometimes a person does things or say things to ruin his own happiness so that he might avoid being hurt by others, meaning he rather hurt himself than hurt by others. This usually happens when the person has low confiendence in something, but usually applies to relationships. Meaning, that he does things to make the gal want to reconsider and then drop bombs to hurt the whole relationship. Like if he knows there are certain things he cannot push he will push for them jolly knowing the consequences of his own actions. Its sad but true that a lot fo us do this on a lesser degree. The problem only suffice when the person does it to himself almost everytime. His seif esteem gets lower each time a failure happens, wads worst is, he will employ this tactic more and more as his self esteem gets lower and lower. Teh danger is that since the esteem never recovers, the person is stuck in a loop hole and thus eventually destroys himself. Worst case may lead to sucide or mental institutions.

for a very long time I hav ebeen doing this to my gfs, or potential gfs, I guess when I find that things are not going my way I do it to bail, or just to prove that I knew it wun work out. If in future you think of doing it, think it this way, maybe something good might come out of it, so why not ride the full wave? As for myself I guess I have been doing it so much that I am in my comfort zone of self pity and thus find it hard to leave it as I feel that no one can provide the comfort I provide for myself.

I hope that this little insights might help a future person to prevent themselves form being set up or setting others up from teh defenses they had created for themselves. It may not be acurrate but these are my insights of the things that I have done in my past and hope that by sharing it, some of you might actually understand wad i am toking about, and maybe for teh curious few, might know me a bit more.

Pheww.....that was a long post.....

IRC stalkers?

I got a few ppl msging me in IRC as I leave my pc on overnight, aside form the usual 'hi's I got these 2 weird ones

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HROCra is Sfp@ * Jggrepbyf
HROCra on #Singapore20+
HROCra using eclipse.us.galaxynet.org [] If only you could read my mind
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marduk666 is ~lroixczgx@cm68.gamma158.maxonline.com.sg * SingNet Java IRC User
marduk666 on #Singapore20+
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Maybe is my magnetic personality, maybe i killed his mother or raped his sister, wadever it is, the second guy seems to have issues I do not want to go into. He just msged me and then proceed to shower me with his nice complements. Btw you guys noticed a trend here? both are from singapore20+, now we know wad sort of freaks there are there.

On other news

I went for RT yesterday, as usual I failed my IPPT again. its nothing new though, only thing was that IX shen (actor) was also at Maju camp doing his IPPT. Well as usual his presence did attract a bit of attention. Boy was he fit. He is a nice fellow after all, smiling to anyone whom looked at his direction.

Also did I mention I almost caused an accident yesterday? Not too sure why my temper was getting out of hand as I usually keep a cool mind on the road (must be all the assholes ppl whom need to ruch for time on the road) I let this idiot guy in a van whom did not let me filter into the middle lane get to me and chase him down, almost miss my turn and skidded across 2 lanes. Luckily the road was empty at that time. Oh well, must meditate a lot more from now on.

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Wad to say

I have lots to say on teh contray, esp after reading Mr browns blog about some heated debate regarding some unhappiness regarding how the government is spending our tax payers money too woo so called talents that then run off after they completed their studies. To add insult to injury, some of these students then proclaim that our government is stupid to provide the scholarships and allowance inteh 1st place

The main arguement is here

This is a short summary of wad I read :

singaporean : singapore is being unfair to its own studenst blah blah blah

kate : no its you singaporeans too dumb and lazy to be competitive

singaporean : The gov dun seem to give fair ground for both to compete on teh same level

kate : you are too stupid that you are comparing apples with oranges

singaporean : fuck you

kate : fuck you back

singaporean : you dumnb bitch

kate : you racist nazi

singaporean : 22% of the university population here is foreign, which half is PRC

kate : that only makes slightly 3% of the population for every university

singaporean : its 11% of *each university*

kate : you used big words and confused me and thereore my assumption fo 3% is rite

singaporean : you go back primary school and study your maths

kate : you moron.....

singaporean : you imbecile....

and it goes on and on..........

Well I dun like to take sides but I read the facts this kate seems to have some facts behind her argument but it feels more like facts thrown in to make others think she is more credible than it seems, plus she ignores the fact that she made many mistakes in her arguments and have yet to admit they are mistakes, infact she sort s of shift the blame that the way the others wrote were unclear (read as excessive use of big words) thus she made no mistakes and therefore her assumption is rite. Its liek saying that I rob a back becoz the government did not provide a job for me.

Dun you just hate it when you see those self righteous bastards/bitches that never conceed in admitting to their mistakes? I really wonder how do these ppl ever survive, be it in a job, relationship and such. I will not be surprise if such ppl were to one day say they are god.

P.S. This is added on 9th Mar 2005

After reading further replies, not only this 'kate' does not admit to her mistakes, I am now sure that this person comes from the upper classes of the population as she has stemed that she had no problem paying for tution fees as the government subsidise a substantial part of it. Its either her parents who are so filthy rich paying for all her whims and therefore seem transparent to her or she is an elote scholar that the government pays for and intend to leave singapore after she gets her free education. Oh well, dun you just hate rich bitches....

Xiaxue in NUS

On a side note, I spoted the famous (or infamous) blogging celebrity in NUS. She was there to promote the local brand Tees she had so been asked to endorse, heavy make up and all. Not surprisingly there was a horde of ppl ard her booth (well not exactly a horde but it was crowded), though her horde is not as huge as teh horde at teh free milo truck. Conclusion? Xiaxue is popular.....but not as popular as milo :P

Also is it me or does it seem that all the ARTs gals in NUS seemed to be overly dressed on a tuesday? Its like chinese new year all over again, whereby the gals are all dress in their newest, sexiest clothes they have recently bought. No doubt I think that XX's visit to the 'humble' institue threw some red flags to the locals here. Maybe they felt that she (XX) is so pretty that all the guys would flock to her and thus in accordance to territorial rites, they had to bring out their sunday's best to make sure that the territry remains theirs

Sadly to say, I do not think that they (the 'damn' students) have anything to fear from this blogging queen. She does look different in real than in the photos, well she did say she would appear unphotoshopped, nothing in teh range of hideous, just she looks different form teh photo that greets you at the front page of her blog. Aside from that I dun see anything else that stuck me that she was a celebrity (well maybe the heavy make does try to be a bit celebritic) . anyway hope the sales went well for her brand name nonetheless.

Monday, March 07, 2005

Lecturer 1 : Students 0

I had a rather pleasent surprise today when I was preparing to record yet another mundane lecture on a monday morning for a bunch of ingrate eng students. The students came in late, prance ard a bit in the LT for a nice place to park their asses and toked nonchantly and rather loudly.

The lecturer had already began his lecture, I was under the impression that he does not care about the abhor behaviour that these 'fine' examples of the best in sillypore has to offer. Then he started to shell at them. Told them to shut up and sit down. He continued to tell them that they are the worst batch of students that he had ever seen. Asking them if they thoughtthat teh world owed them a living? and that they are supposed to be the future of sillypore, yet displayed such disgaceful behaviour.

I was speechless, almost a tear formed inmy eye when I heard those words, I was deeply touched, as those are the exact words I feel like telling these 'damned' students from time to time. The trend has been that the younger generation of singaporeans are getting worst with each generation, also these young uns are really gettingto such a level that they think that they are lazy, selfish, have no compassion and the likes.

Its not surprising as I see the way a lot of teh younger generation blogs, its disheartening. A lot of them always asking for wants and not needs and that they seem to not be able to live if they do not et want they 'want'. Oh well, I guess we have breed a generation of spoilt, selfish brats that only cared for themselves and no one else.

On a side note a self proclaimed blogging celebrity will make her appearance here on campus tomorrow to promote the tees she is endorsing. Well those whom are her fans do flock down to NUS forum at 12- 2 pm and see wad she looks like in person. She is none other than our famous, or rather infamous 'xiaxue'.

Friday, March 04, 2005

Wedding in NUS?

Walking to the arts canteen, there was some sort of comotion going on at teh lower level of seats. To my dismay, there was this couple dressed in formal full white. Gal with flowers in hand, guy with combed back hair. Crowds of ppl stand ard them shjouting the ritual yum seng. In my mind I was wondering which dum ass whom cock hair is no longer than my armpit hair is going to marry at this dumb age, let alone do it in the school canteen.

I did my habitual 'damn students' and found a seat at the back of the canteen so that I can hide from the world. Got my food and prepared to chow down, when this idiot came up to me asking for donations. I looked at him for a while an dhe said that the donations are for some children's society and was connected to the 'play' I witness a few moments ago. I usually dun give donations, esp now in my time of adversity. Still I did not know why I manage to chuck in 50 cents into his made shift bag. That 50 cents could have gone to something more worth while, oh well treat it as a show fees. I guess getting rid of the idiot from my face was worth teh 50 cents.

Lunch was uneventful, no bad tummies nor reactions to the food I take nowaday. The trip back to office left me with some questions though as I haped across this 'ah lian' with a crotch length SKIRT. Had it been shorts I would not have any quams about. I mean, look this is nus, no longer a university , but a whore house, as these dumb 'ah lians' seem to want to paint teh image of this so called institue of education. The thing is, I did not only haped across one, but I haped across no less than 3 other gals wearing similar length skirts. Its confirmed...NUS is a whorehouse.

Maybe the fact that it is friday contributed to these slut dressing gals. must be that they are going to chiong and get their eventiual bang tonite that made them dress as a local breed of streetwalkers. Times like these make me ever so wonder if I am ever going to have children due to the fact that the children these days scare me with that tenacity to dress as sluts.

Thursday, March 03, 2005

Lesson that you can learn from RT

Well its true, there is actual truth in some of the shit the 2IC like to tell us to amuse us when we are waiting for training to commence. Btw my 2 arms now feel lifeless and I am typing the ala 2 finger style. Back to teh story, well the 2IC is a funny man, he always entertain us by telling us some sexual facts (more like fictions) or jokes, like how good he is in bed.

Then he went on to brief the phase 1 guys and told if someone one were to come up to you and say 'they understand your problem' you go and fuck them. Coz no one can understand your problem, as everyone's problem is unqiue. I heard the same speech when I was phase 1 and it did not made much impact till recently. I look back n my life and wonder how many times was I teh asshole whom told the same 'I understand your problem' to someone when I would never truely know the real problem.

I guess wad we can do is console a person about his/her problems and even try to help. Being in the line of helping all my past friends when they presented their problems, I guess I went out of my way to help a lot of ppl whom have now forgotten me. Maybe that is why I find it hard to show my true self inside me as many of times when I try to tell someone my woes, they get brushed aside by the person whom presents me with his/her problems. Ended up trying to solve or tok about their problem and mine left to teh background.

It just happens so often till I find it that maybe even believe that my problems seem unimportant and no one wants to care about them. Thus I close up the things that bother me from my friends and family. Think ing that they dun want to hear about it nor want to help me. Now 10 yrs from that point, i guess nothing much the same. Its alwyas other ppl's problems ahead of mine.

To add on to the shit I am facing some fuckers prowl my blogs trying to instill justice to me for my past sins. Come on, you are not god , stop judging me, I may seem to not let it bother me, but frankly speaking, WAD THE FUCK you assholes want from me? Please if your only purpose is to come here and see how miserable my life is, or to try to make it miserable when things go well for me, FUCK OFF. Like the chinese would say, kill the person, his whole family and extended family. You think that would resolve or even chenge a single thing?

~A man stands by teh edge of the river, he drops a rock into it, what do you hear? The rock or the splash?~

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Young man Dun 'zhen' old man....got 'Bao Yin' one!!!

Thats wad I have in my mind when the saddist 20 yr old PTI decided to make us do an exercise called lines. Wad this exercise requires us to do is to run from one end of a badminton court breath wise to the other side. Does not sound saddistic you say? Well you got to run to every whiteline and then run back to the start and then run to the next white line after that until you reach the last line and back and then do the reverse order. That is considered 1 set. We had to do 5!!

Nabeh, I tell you if I can run those white lines in those order and at that speed you think I will be in RT? as I said, you play with old man like thta, your future also will have retribution ( like never tell your father how to fuck, its teh same principle).

My arms legs and body is aching over the session I had last nite. Not only did they include teh above mention exercise (read as torture) they also made us do reps of mass PT, which incidentally involved 20 something pushups, sit ups and wadever saddistic form of physically torture (in no less than 5 different variations) they like to see old men do. And that is only 1 set, we had to do 2 sets. Did not someone say doing push ups were useless in helping our chin ups? Oh yeah their OC told us that...DUH!

I dread going back tml to find out wad other evil plan they have for us tml. Much as well just shove a spike up our asses if they so like to see us sprawled on teh ground. We are toking about 200+ men ard the age of 28-40 in a space no bigger than 3 badminton court. To think that 4 20yr olds have that much power over 200 men my age does make me wonder wtf is wrong with us.